Hey guys been a while hasn't it c:
Well...I feel like I gotta get stuff of my chest since I've bee so depressed lately.
I honestly hate who I am, I put on a fake smile so often, it has become my "real" expression. I hate everything about myself. My hair, my acne, my attitude, my emotions, my body, my thoughts, my actions, myself.
I promised I'd stop picking up the blade, (cutting myself) but I can't help it it's so tempting. It helps me ease so much fucking pain. I keep it on me just in case I want to use it.
In all. I'm really tempted to...just end it(suicide)but like I said I made promises I do intend to keep.
I'll just start by saying what bothers me, and hopefully some one who does read helps me out.
~ I feel really unloved, but I know it's all in my fucking head
~ I really want to get therapy, but have no clue how to ask my parents
~ sometimes I stop and stare at my scars, I'm reminded of what I want to forget, but either way(with or without scars) I'm going remember
~ when I shut my eyes I start to think, I realize, I want someone to call mine, I want to date...again. But I'm so fucking scared, cause of my last relationship, I don't really trust anyone.
~ I want to pick up the blade sooo badly!
~ I hate myself.
well that's pretty much it. I hate myself. Nothing new. Bye Guise.
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and your parents never noticed the scars? never noticed you're in pain? your friends and family never show you that they love you? i think you should open up tp them even slightly more and KEEP THE BLADE AWAY why are you taking it with u anyway? did it ever happen to u to have two voices in your head one telling to stop hurting yourself and the other tempts you to do it ? always force yourself no matter what to do what your good side tells u <.< of course i might be just crazy and hearing weird voices but it works for me xD